A slot of pleasure in my schedule

Daily life had started to feel repetitive. Work, obligations, and routines filled the days, yet something felt missing. Even when everything seemed to be functioning normally, a quiet sense of dissatisfaction and boredom kept appearing in my chest.

The feeling did not arrive all at once. It showed up in small moments. Long workdays passed quickly and left me tired but unable to sleep and scrolling on mobile. In general my evenings disappeared into habits that felt automatic rather than enjoyable. After a while it became difficult to ignore the sense of disconnection from my own desires.

Paying attention to that discomfort and talking about it with my therapist made me reveal something simple. Pleasure had quietly disappeared from my daily life. Not in an obvious dramatic way, but through small omissions. The days contained productivity, responsibilities, and efficiency. Somehow I did not have time for enjoyment.

At the same time there was a strange contrast inside me. Beneath the structured rhythm of work and obligations, my body still carried energy, curiosity, and a desire to feel more alive. I just could not understand why life started to feel flat and "mechanical".

Once I clarified this challenge within myself I also took the homework to notice small things around me. Attention shifted toward simple moments like morning coffee, I started to do it not as an activity to check out of the box but with little more time to slow down and enjoy it. It felt silly to realise that I had to focus to enjoy a latte. Same happened with my short walk to the metro brought a surprising sense of calm. Even brief pauses during the day created space to reconnect with physical sensations and emotions.

None of these moments were dramatic. They were ordinary experiences that had simply been ignored before. The difference came from noticing them and allowing them to exist without rushing through them.. or scrolling on the screen while doing it.

I wouldn't say that I transformed my life with these habits but I can clearly see that enjoying those moments made me realise that I had more deeper experiences that also could be more intense if I would slow down and enjoy the situation.

My most common way to understand if I am loosing my connection with small things or not is to check my mobile battery because it tells me how much scrolling I did during the day.